Never Forget

Do you remember where you were in the moment you heard about the towers on 9/11/01? I remember it like it was yesterday and that paralyzing feeling still all to real in my mind today. It was supposed to be just an ordinary day, like every other day, until the moment where everything changed. 

My next question is.... Is our society back to being as relaxed as we were in the hours and minutes before the first plane hit the tower? So many people just go about their day like nothing happened on that day but it is US that need to remember those fateful moments that took to many lives and destroyed families forever. Yes, I have been through the airport security checks since 9/11 and it is a pain in the arse. I would take the long lines and intrusive bag checks over being in a hijacked plane any day! 

On this anniversary, I ask that you take a moment to remember where you were and how you felt when you got the news of 9/11 and then list what you are grateful for because you are still breathing while the people in those planes, in those buildings and the heroes that ran into those buildings are not. 

Lip Scrub Made in your Kitchen

This lip scrub is super easy to make from the products in your very own kitchen! All you need is a teaspoon or less of brown sugar (makes for a better exfoliant then white sugar), olive oil and honey. Locally harvested honey is the best for you to aid in fighting off allergies!

Keep your lips smooth and beautiful this fall and winter season by taking 3 minutes to scrub your lips! 

I'm not allowed to miss you

It's Friday night, I'm sitting here listening to classical music in an attempt to keep calm and reading a positive thinking book so that I don't dwell on the negative in my life. All of a sudden, the flood gates open and every tear that I have held back the past month appears as a long stream on salty, cold tears down my cheeks. Why today? It has been one month since you said your last words to me....

A breakup is hard but a breakup with someone the second time around and on your birthday is even harder... Or it has been for me. We have all been through a breakup or two or more and felt the pain and then just moved on as life moves on. This breakup hasn't been like the rest, I didn't go begging for reasons or another chance (don't tell me you haven't done this at least once!). Yes the desperate girl act in hopes that you won't lose him and everything will turn out perfect until they don't.... I have been in that cycle in the past but this time is so different.

I chalked up my calmness (there were moments of weakness and a few tears shed) to growing and evolving as a person.... Until tonight. Once I realized the date and the significance that marked one month since that dreadful night, I could no longer hold back the pain and tears. I cried for over an hour and just didn't know how to stop them. I know what I lost that night and I'm not saying I was at total fault for the push that shoved our relationship over the edge but I would never want to lose him from my life forever. 

Now I have no other choice but to be happy for him and whatever might be going on in his life because  tears and anger will never patch the gaping hole in my heart for losing not just the love I had but a friend that I will cherish forever. 

PS. Growing up sucks as much as being the bigger person!