Showing posts with label life changes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life changes. Show all posts

Thursday, October 30, 2014

My Return to Blogging


It has been a year since I last blogged and though I have had thoughts of writing in the past something always came up and I would put it off until another day. There has been a lot of ups and downs in the past year and way to many changes for the bad. The past couple of weeks, I have been working very hard on changing those negative experiences into a positive experience and life.

I am human, I got overwhelmed and pulled into the deep, dark hole of negativity that has surrounded me. With every negative situation, I would get sucked deeper into the self-pity. Self pity is a party of one and not a pretty place to live. Instead of happy, positive affirmations; all I could hear myself saying was "my life is horrible", "I am broke", "  I am a failure", "I am ugly and fat" and many more. How could life be good when I just kept saying those horrible things to myself? I cried myself to sleep more then once and even cried to my friends.

At my lowest point, I figured out that I need to pick myself up and start fixing myself and my life. No more negativity, no more crying and no more pity party for one! I started to read positive books again which gave me ideas of how to incorporate positive affirmations into more of my daily routine. I created a wishboard (which I will be explaining further in a future post) and hung it on the wall across from my bed so every morning that is the first thing I see and read. My next idea was a positivity jar.

The positivity jar is my way of focusing on a daily positive affirmation every day starting in the morning. After hours of research, I printed out tons of affirmations and quotes plus wrote some of my favorites and placed them in an old mason jar. I am placing the jar on my night stand so every morning the first thing I will do is pick an affirmation out of the jar and read it. This is my way to start my day on a positive note from the moment I open my eyes.

I believe in children leading a positive life in a world full of negativity especially school aged children. My Lily is 7 going on 17 and has had issues with self confidence since starting school. She has been picked on because she has to go to special classes for reading help, clothes she wears or that her single mom can't afford to take her places that other kids get to go. My heart has broken for her to go through this at school at such an early age. She is in a new school this year which she loves but I want to help boost her confidence so I started a positivity jar for her as well.

I am excited to see how this added boost of positivity will change our lives. I am going to do this for the next 62 days (until the end of the year) and post the affirmations on my Instagram, Twitter and Facebook pages. Once a week, I will write a post about positivity and update how these changes are making a difference in our lives. I hope this will inspire others to make positive changes in their lives.

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

In Need Of A Change


For almost a year now I have wanted to move away from the area that I grew up in but something has held me back. Everytime I begin to make my plans to move something has happened to prevent me from following my hearts desire of going some place where everyone doesn't know my name or my family. See I live in an area where I grew up, my parents grew up and my grandparents grew up so everyone knows everyone (for the most part) and I got out once but after I gave birth to Lily I moved back because I thought I needed the help. Now I am realizing I should have stayed away because I was happier being away. Lesson Learned that you can't change the past and wallowing in your sorrow doesn't help you today or in the future. So am sitting here biding my time until it is the right time for my big, amazing change. One day the chaos will subside and I will get to live out my dream of moving away and living some place new.

Have you ever wanted to do something different, change something but chaos held you back?